I remember when I first fell in love. Honestly, it was a feeling that I really liked and didn\’t know at all; I think I was about 19 years old. Because I later asked some of my friends when they fell in love and how old they were, and they said they were about 14 or 15 years old. They themselves said it was a really big crush. And when I asked all my friends what it was like when they fell in love, they said the same thing. They said they fell in love when they were 15 or 16.
So you think it\’s crazy to fall in love at 19? I just didn\’t want to fall in love yet. I wasn\’t ready for love, much less an intimate relationship. And I was very shy. So I couldn\’t imagine being naked in front of a strange man. I don\’t know how hard it was for me to get naked in front of my gynecologist. So I wanted to choose a more comfortable woman, but I was very shy in front of women. It\’s really horrible and difficult to maintain a relationship with me. I\’m
I\’m more of an introvert, so my friends would choose someone quiet and introverted like me. I would like to be a more dynamic person, but when I try to overcome my fears and shame, for example, I always fail to do so and end up with bad results. So I told myself that when I find a relationship, I will respect and love my boyfriend. Because I think my boyfriend might give me more confidence. And I think that confidence is what I really lack in my relationships, whether it\’s with friends or romantic partners. I think it\’s time to step up and take the plunge.
